I Was Born by the River....
For some people, there are moments of clarity that occur that are so sudden and unadulterated that they can immediately see the forest for the trees. I am not one of those people. There are rarely triggers that elicit reactions that are so pure and visceral that I suddenly know all the right answers. (Usually, I am pretty unclear on the question at hand.) It takes time, often too much time, to understand my emotional wherewithal. However, in one moment on New Years Eve something came together for me. Maybe it was months and months of good friends alternatively telling me how stupid I am and how worthwhile I am within the same breath. Maybe it was the cumulative effect of the outpouring of love and support I received on my birthday. Maybe it was the emotional rush of metaphorically beginning anew at the stroke of a clock. Maybe in one phone call, I realized that if I opened my eyes, that all the love I needed wasn’t on the other line. It was all around me. Or maybe it was just too much champagne….
Whatever it was, it was clear that I am better than how I have been treating myself and I need to hold others to that same standard. This is not to say I am totally abandoning my feelings or pretending to be at peace with something I am not. But, moments of clarity come rarely to me, so I must take advantage of this one.
2005 is going to be different for many reasons. This message has been brought to you by Lifetime Television for Women, movie of the week.
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